The Five Month Appointment

I have been looking forward to this day for the past four weeks; well, since my last doctor's appointment.  I am now 24 weeks along. My doctor checked the baby's heartbeat. It gave off a loud, steady thump. Always a good sign. I breathed a sigh of relief. Relief is a word a pregnant 46-year old needs a lot of throughout her pregnancy. I now feel a little more relieved. You see "nerve-wracking" is a feeling a pregnant 46-year old feels everyday to this point until the five month check-up can make the nerve-wrackedness subside a bit if the ob/gyn says, "Everything looks good."
I asked, "But is it ok to think that nothing that terrible could go wrong at this point?" The answer I wanted was, "You're completely home-free.". Instead, I got..."Hey, you're looking good."  All right.I will take that. The last thing I wanted to hear is more risks associated with my high-risk pregnancy because I am 46. I got pregnant, didn't I? Why am I classified as "high risk" just because I'm 46? It's a label I guess I will have to endure until baby is born. But my ob/gyn is my ob/gyn because he is wonderfully optimistic and soft-spoken. He doesn't say much.  So that's good, right? Or is he hiding something? No, he couldn't be, could he? No, the baby is kicking me right now, as a matter of fact. I'm huge. I don't fit into my bras anymore. What more proof do I need? Well, a sonogram everyday would put me in a state of utter non-worry.  But that is impossible and against all laws of my insurance company. So, I will have to worry to some degree (and let's hope the degree of my worry stays under control so that I can have some fun in my life) until my next sonogram in six weeks. The sonogram lets you see the baby, so you know there is a baby in there and it is not just a figment of your imagination. Celine Dion has one done every few days, I heard, to keep her worry level in check. Until I have her money, I will just have to deal with my worry as best I can...by biting my nails and eating peanut butter on whole grain bread at 11PM every night.